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[02 Dec 2006|10:26pm] |
Well the future's got me worried
Such awful thoughts
My head's a carousel of pictures
The spinning never stops
I just want someone to walk in front
And I'll follow the leader
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[11 Sep 2006|07:00pm] |
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I hardly ever have my cell phone with me so it's a miracle if I ever answer it. I sleep on top of my comforter, but not because I'm too lazy to make the bed, but because I've used the same blanket for over half my life and I can't part with it. My room is always messy and I don't even notice it, but everyone else around me does. I miss in the summer how I would stay up with my brother till 3:30 in the morning talking and watching TV. I'd like to think that I'm a loyal friend, but I don't know if I was really put to the test if I would pass or not, and that worries me. I always say how I never have anything to wear, but I have so many shirts I wouldn't want to take the time to count them all. I'm on a quest to rent every movie that has even slightly seemed interesting to me in an attempt to really be as cultured of a movie watcher as I think I am. Sometimes I worry that I'm cutting myself off from the world because I don't like going out that much, and it's not out of laziness, I just don't like people that much, and that also worries me. I've been told that I look old for my age and I hope I'm as mature as think I am. I think it's all relative. I can't decide whether I want to dye my hair or not, sometimes I do and sometimes I like it the color that it is. I want to get into a college that is in the top ten of the country and I already hyperventilate sometimes about because I never think my grades will be good enough. I don't like when people look at me like im crazy for worrying about grades, or when I think getting a B on my report card is a bad grade. We don't have the same standards, I understand that and I'd hope that you would too. I really wonder sometimes if I was actually faced with a physical fight if I would fight like a retard or not. Thus, I want to get in a fight someday and know for sure. I always look forward and hope it'll be better once I'm a certain age, and because of this lack of living in the moment I hope I don't feel like I missed out later on in life. I want to get married by my mid-20's even though I'm still skeptical of the whole marriage thing. I don't know if it's possible to be in love with someone for your entire life without just lulling yourself into an unfufilling life out of necessity rather than want. I don't know what I want to do with my life, but I refuse to sit in a cubicle in some office building for the rest of my life, I want to travel, and I want to feel free. I worry sometimes that I worry so much about these things because if I think so deeply about the rest of my life and all the possibilities of it turning out badly then am I or am I not just setting myself up for disappointment later? Is it as hard as I make it out to be, or should I just take it one day at a time?
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[16 Jun 2006|02:21am] |
In the past week I have:
-thought I've gone cross eyed.
-thought I've gone deaf.
-had my first drink since February or March.
-began my summer trend of going to sleep at 3-4ish and waking up from 12-2ish.
-decided to become a hippie and move to California when I'm older.
-been seen wearing the same outfit on two days back to back by a guy that I think is semi-cute. (go me and my good hygiene!)
-once again got nothing accomplished with Jake.
-learned that I'm going to drink with him possibly next week??!?lkdjsfkae
-become addicted to Sonic and Knuckles on Sega Genesis and spider solitaire.
aaand... yeah. I don't know what else. Eventful though right? Yeah shutup.
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[10 Jun 2006|03:06pm] |
So I was looking through people's old updates and I stumbled across this one from Vanessa's old lj... I hope you enjoy.
Okay. So we get to the park and I'm taking pictures of stupid things like mark and kyle getting their bikes up on the jungle gym. anyhow, so theres this like, play ground thing. and theres this orange fish thats a bridge..it goes on the sides aaaand you can stand on the top of that to get to the little tower's roof. Anyhow i finally to standing on the fish and kyle was all "its okay its okay hold my hand doo doo doo" but i was WAAAY TO SCARED. anyways, cutting to the chase, when kelsey was coming down she was like nervouse.
mark: do you want me to get down first? and show you?
her: no no its okay.
*her jumping down landing hard on her knee and saying OH SHIT*
Then she started, well it SOUNDED like she was crying but it was just like whining and like ..i donno.
So we're all around her and like she's saying, "oh my god..oww....my ankle i heard a fucking crack!!! omg..omg" and shes going crazy and I'm like
Me: omg. dont tell your mom you broke it.
her: WHAT?
ME: NOT THAT YOU BROKE IT!!!
kyle: hahaha you're so bad at this.
SO then we got her to sit down by the shade and she called her mom to get her and when her mom came she was giggling quietly
me: MRS CLIFFORD YOUR LAUGHIGN!
her: *covering her mouth* im sorry...just the look on her face...
lmfao. it was great. Before that kelsey asked if she should take off her shoe. And kyle unlaced it and took off her shoe then through it like a centimeter away from her ankle.
him: HAHAHA!!! IM JUST JOSHIN' YA!
ME: OMG LMFAO!!!!!!!!!!AHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!
HER: KYLE!!!!!!
him: donnnnnnnt worry i didnt aim it at your ankle!
then joey was riding around his bike and he slipped and he's like, "OWWWW MY ANKLE!!!"
ME:OMG AAAAAHAHAHA
Kelsey: ........
Joey: do you get to ride in the school's elevator now?
me: JOEY! (lmfao)
oh it was great. then kyle started telling her some inside jokes of theirs. and i told her a joke, and joey told her MY JOKE. "What do you call a seagel flying over the bay" ....totally my joke.
then kyle tried biting kelsey to take her mind off her ankle. lmfao. ohhhhh oh it was great. I called her i donno when and no one picked up so i left a message, "hi kelsey, im calling to make sure you're not dead. ehh call me back."
This story followed me around for the next like.. 6 months. Thank you to everyone who found hilarity in my pain. Even though I did too after awhile.
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[08 Jun 2006|10:46pm] |
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Yeaaaaah. I fucked it up again. GO ME!
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| Goal for the summer: Clean my room |
[26 May 2006|08:36pm] |
So currently I have a headache. It's preeeetty humid here right now which is NEVER a good thing. But on the brightside... only four finals left then summer is here. Not that I ever do anything interesting in summer. Today this kid in my geometry class asked me what my plans were for summer. Who knows that kind of stuff in advance? Things in summer just... happen.
I'm going to miss the people in my classes. Spanish and English mostly. This kid Evan that I became pretty good friends with is moving to England next year which sucks since I'm never going to see him again, but it IS London. I would want to move there too.
I feel like I kind of took freshman year for granted... I kept just looking forward to it being over and now that it is I realize that I could have made it a lot better experience or whatever. :/ Ohh well. There's always next year... but it won't be the saaame. Hopefully better.. I dunno. I get to nostalgic about these sort of things.
I'm going to watch a movie now. I don't know what yet.. I wish I had a bigger movie selection. If i actually had money all I would spend it on is movies and cds. Clothes are definately secondary to the movies and cds as sad as that is I guess. Anyway. I'm going to get on that. The watching a movie and finding some sort of money thing.
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[06 May 2006|01:05am] |
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Sooo... tonight what pretty god damn sweet. Sam's surprise party. I almost let it slip before hand but my quick thinking unda pressa prevented me from telling her what was going on.
Laughed a lot tonight. Hung out with people I haven't done so with in a long time tonight. aaand now I'm cold. and my neck hurts from sitting her for two hours. I haven't been up at 1:10 in the AM in a long while. I'm getting old. But just WAIT until summer when im up till 5:00 WISHING I could fall asleep. >.<
This summer better be better than last years. Although.. how could it not since I was being watched like a hawk last summer. lol. heh. Hmm... maybe we'll have freakishly cool summer this year too so it won't be like.. 90 degrees everyday and I'll actually leave the air conditioning! eh? eh? Probably not.
I should probably go up to sleep soon before my brother comes home.. he's going to want to talk and I do not have enough energy to talk right now. *nodding off as I type* ehhhhh I think that about wraps it up for today. See you laterrr.
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[02 May 2006|08:35pm] |
WOOOO everyone like the new layout created by my love vanessa?!?!
I know. great.
ANYWAY. I wonder if I've lost the updating touch. Probably have.
Well. Life. How IS life? Pretty gooood lately. I'm contimplating whether to wear sweat pants to school tomorrow because I might be a little tooo warm. lol. Isn't my life EXCITING?! *crickets*
Moving on. I discovered the miracle of Soundlab this weekend. =) I ended up going for three reasons:
1. to see vanessa of course!
2. to see justin of course!
3. to see jake oneill of course!
only vanessa didnt show up because shes a c-bag! -.- <3
God I feel stupid writing this for some reason. lol. Maybe I should return to lj slooowly. I think thats enough for today.
Later
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[03 Mar 2006|11:36pm] |
JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY is a jackass JIMMY JIMMY JIMMY
j/k. youre not a jackass. love you
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[24 Feb 2006|06:53pm] |
So. Here I sit on a Friday night. As always. Why? Because my mom is super gay. I hate this age. I can't wait to drivvvve. >.< Any time that I ask to do something she refuses to drive because shes old and she can't go out of the house past 6:00. LSKDJfklajsdklfjaskldjf FUCK!
Anyway. So yes. Now I'm here doing an actual update. I'm listening to "Mad World" by Gary Jules for the trillionth time because I'm in love with this song. I just discovered the movie Donnie Darko last night. I've wanted to see it forever, but I actually thought about it when I was in the movie store yesterday and finally rented it. La es magnifico. I think by tomorrow my mom will feel guilty about not letting me go out tonight and buy me the movie. lol. Hopefully.
Hmm... so you know whats in like.. a month and a half? That's right. My birthday. And I'm already thinking about it now even though I'm definately not having a party or anything because uhh helloooo. Not a good idea due to the to debacle of last year. Debacle. I think I'll start using that word. lol. I like it.
You know.. I hate this lj layout. lol. I've had it for like a year or so. Vanessa. Get on this will you? Make me a new layout slave. just KIDDING. no but seriously. layout.
So what should I do tonight since I am NOT at Panera? Maybe I'll watch Wallace and Grommit: The Case of the Were-Rabbit. lol. I also rented that yesterday too.
You know what I love? Propel water. I mean seriously. If I had to choose one drink to have for the rest of time I would choose it. (setting aside some sort of alcohol of course) But I don't know what flavor. Peach? Kiwi-Strawberry? Melon? I love them all.
I forgot about how you can just ramble on about random things on here. lol. I'm enjoying this. but I think that this is a good start for today. So I'm going to go. hasta luego.
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[21 Feb 2006|05:49pm] |
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omggggggg. this is my first lj entry since like... august. lol wow. i bet i dont even have anything interesting to say. *thinks* yup. no. life is good. lol.
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First day of High School next Tuesday.
Excited/nervous.
Oh and happy.
This summer sucked.
Wish me luck.
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[09 Jul 2005|11:08pm] |
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I actually miss livejournal. :( I think I'll start trying to update again every once in a while... *shrugs* or I might not. lol
It just made me laugh. lol
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[19 Jun 2005|05:03pm] |
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Hmm. So. I think it's pretty obvious I've basicly given up on livejournal... There's really no point in updating or anything anymore since I talk to all of you on AIM. But I guess I'll check in from time to time. Bye lj...
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| This is what I chose to do while I was bored: |
[06 Jun 2005|04:38pm] |
The alphabet:
Armor for sleep
Bright Eyes
Cursive
Death Cab for Cutie
Emery
Fall Out Boy
Gym Class Heroes
Hot Hot Heat
Incubus
Jimmy Eat World
Killers (the)
Led Zeppelin
My Chemical Romance
New Found Glory
Oasis
Postal Service
Queens of the Stone Age
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Something Corporate
Taking Back Sunday
Used (the)
Vines (the)
Weezer
Xena? lol
Yeah, yeah, yeah's
Zzzzzz.. uh.. I got nothing. lol
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[05 Jun 2005|11:48am] |
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I am so hyper right now you dont even know. Which is weird since I was up till 5:30 and woke up at 11:30... Hmm.. lol. Up last night on the phone with a very very gone Kyle and Danny. haha. Surprisingly though.. Kyle was playing guitar like.. better than he usually does if that's possible... Anyway..
I am officially obsessed with myspace. I feel like I'm cheating on my livejournal. lol. But it's just so.. awesome! And so much easier to meet people. I have gotten Kyle addicted to it too.
*last night on phone*
Kyle: Kelsey! Myspace is down! NOO! It's my life now!
Me: Heh. Which is actually pretty sad since you always used to make fun of me for those websites and now your on it more than me.
(which is true. he's probably on there a minimum of three hours a day. lol)
I have to go to a graduation party today for a family friend.. where I'm friends with no one... So I'm going to be like.. next to my mom the whole time. lol. Pathetic isn't it? But anyway.. I should really go get ready for that I think. Update much later. How does July sound for everyone? lol
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Well well well. I am officially OUT OF SCHOOL... not including graduation where I'm going to be crying lol. And it's only junior high graduation. Isn't that pathetic? But I'm probably not going to see people over the summer and who knows what's going to happen once we get to high school? So for this reason and because of my mom deleting all my writing... I was extremely depressed last night and cried for a long time. lol But I'm fine now!
Went out to lunch with my mom today then to BARNES AND NOBLE! God I love that place. I got the sequel to Summer Boys and an AP. But GUESS who I ran into!! SAM AND AMANDA! yay! lol. <333. Made my day brighter! Then I read my book for a while and ducks flew into my pool while I did. (I was on the deck at the time lol) Then I played tennis with my brother and my dad and I have a theory... my brother is a drug dealer. haha. I won't expand on this theory but just know that I have it... Well I gotta go.. Later!
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[21 May 2005|08:24pm] |
Alrighty. So. I'm finally going to update. I still really don't have anything to update about since I'm still under house arrest but I did see Star Wars today with my mom and brother. lol. Freaking awesome. Hayden Christensen is orgasmic. I mean really.
So Six Flags is on Monday. I cannot wait. My first time out with my friends since the weekend of my birthday! WOO! It better be as awesome as I'm expecting it to be. I'm sure it will be though.
I can't believe I'm graduating in 9 days. That's crazy to think about. Finally out of junior high. AHAHA. Even though I loved junior high. lol. It was awesome. So many great memories.. *sigh*
Okay so.. did everyone see the OC? My god! Like.. INCREDIBLE?! Heck yes!
Anyway. I have nothing else. lol. That is my life and it sucks.
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